My Promise to Myself

When it comes to weight loss and fitness, I have been known to say that I not only fell off the wagon, but that it also backed up and ran over me. Seriously! I have a major addiction to food. If I've had a bad day - I want to eat, if I've had a wonderful day - I want to eat, if I'm tired - I want to eat. It's a real problem when trying to lose weight.

Last July I wrote a post explaining why I wasn't going to weigh myself anymore. You can read that here, or the basic run down is that I would weigh myself and feel pretty depressed and then do really well for a week or two, and once I would lose some weight (even just 4 or 5 pounds) I would totally allow myself to be terrible and then I would gain that weight back and start right back over. What I've learned in the past 8 months of not weighing myself (granted I had a wedding and a honeymoon in there) is that instead of at least maintaining, I gained a LOT of weight - almost 20 pounds. At the beginning of February I was at my heaviest - 242 pounds. This past Monday I was at 236.6 (headed in the right direction!), but I definitely have a lot more work to do to get where I would like to be - my first short term goal getting to about 212 which would be about 10% weight loss.

 So I've decided to claw and climb my way back on the wagon - I'm not doing great, but I'm trying. This week I've started again tracking my food - again, not great but better than not doing it! I purchased a Fitbit a couple of months ago and it's kind of fun to see how many steps you take in a day, and miles you walk, and I'm really trying to pay a little bit more attention to it throughout my day. When I first got it, I would just check it at the end of the day, and see that I was like 2,000 steps short of my goal, whereas the last couple of weeks I'm checking it multiple times during the day and trying to get up and walk around a bit if I know I've been sitting for a while. I also just got back on My Fitness Pal app and started tracking my food. You can find me HERE if you would like to be my friend and support me! I like that app because I can also link it up to my fitbit so it gives me an extra place to keep track of how I'm doing each day.

So in conclusion to the rambling - I promise to TRY. I promise to be mindful of what I eat, and even though it might not be great (like the pizza I had for lunch - which was delicious and totally worth it), but I will track it. I promise to drink AT LEAST 64 ounces of water a day (which, by the way, I'm totally killing this one!). I promise not to give up and give in because I've gained some weight back. This has become a real struggle for me, and it might always be a struggle for me from now on, and I might not always have it figured it out, but I will continue to try baby step by baby step!

 

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